my granny is transferred to general ward!! she can even tok to my mum on handphone.. speedy recovery these 2 daes.. relieved man.. but got to go visit my paternal grandma this sat.. for her case its hard to recover.. not operation but illness.. and doc saes there is no way to heal .. or to operate coz she is too old.. like wat shijia said.. my parents mus be both v stressed .. parents getting older and weaker by the dae.. esp my paternal side.. when there is no way to cure and eating lesser by the dae.. situation seems to be similar to wat my late granddads went thru before they left us.. choy choy.. but my parents always tell me this is life.. everyone got to go thru this stage .. whether its more and less pain.. so jus to acc them wheneva possible.. was thinking abt wat my maternal grandma's maid was telling us that dae in the hospital.. act my grandma is v sad every night.. when we leave the hospital after visiting her.. coz she feels lonely.. then she added.. not jus during her stay in hospital.. act wheneva we visit her at her house.. she wld feel sad after we left.. me and my mum looked at each other.. and can feel the sadness in each other's eyes.. dink old pple realli feel lonely.. and insecure.. esp those without children staying with them.. and when their spouses have left.. and ironically this is the case.. when grandpa is ard.. grandma will keep nagging and scolding him for being troublesome and useless but when they r not ard anymore.. we can see that they miss their other half.. dink human beings r like dat.. will always miss something onli they r not ard.. absence makes the heart grow fonder.. loneliness is inevitable for old pple.. children have their own families .. they have their own commitments..lesser time to spend with them.. illnesses they have to cope with.. sometimes i look at myself.. i am afraid of loneliness.. wat wld happen when i grow old.. like my grandma's age.. ok dink i dink too much.. sometimes when i have nothing to do my mind jus wanders.. wat abt u? i always believe in having a big family.. so dat its more re4 nao4.. though big family also has its own probs.. but during happy times.. more pple can immerse into the happiness and share the joy.. well.. i jus wish for good health for everyone's grandparents.. feeling sleepy.. be back soon~~