sometimes i feel i have neva done anything very meaningful for anyone in my life.. made someone really happy for the entire dae.. being an important someone in anyone's life.. even as a daughter.. i make my mum unhappy by shouting back at her or argue with her .. not like my sis who would know how to keep quiet and not ans back so as not to make my mum upset.. jus like wat my dad says.. my younger sis is even more mature than me sometimes.. i make her worry when i come home late and i would argue back that it is not too late when it is out of pure concern that she raised her voice.. hoping that i can come home early to rest so that i would not too tired for work the next dae..there are many things she did for me and yet i do not appreciate..

as a friend.. i dink i am jus a lousy one.. neva realli noe to console a person who is sad.. listen but no good comforting words can come out of my mouth.. neglecting frenz and not bothering to catch up with wat frenz whom i have not seen for quite some time.. not knowing how to pay attention to my close budz.. and not being by their side when they are down..when i came to know abt it .. i was too late.. sometimes i feel, with or without me as a friend doesnt make any big difference.. coz i neva did anything much for anyone for my life as far as i can recall.. neither did i warm anyone's heart...always being the inobservant, blur and ignorant being in life..

looking back at first 20 yrs of my life.. i have failed in many aspects.. there r many things i have to improve on to make my existence more meaningful..