woke up at 7 plus todae.. jus finished part on my 213 report.. so pathetic right.. have to wake up so early to do report.. *yawns*..
at my grandma's house in msia now.. came to visit her with my family and sao3 mu4 too.. yest night went my grandma relative's bdae celebration.. my 11th time eating catered buffet this year.. including all the 21st bdae parties i have attended.. she is 95 yrs old.. cute old granny.. she would ask u whose child u are coz she has so many of her own grandchildren to remember.. aftera few moments when she sees u .. she wld ask again.. as though she has neva seen u before.. so funny.. then she start to hold ur hands and hug u and sae grown so big le.. and look at my father.."wah.. ur kids!! so big le... got bf? .." blah blah.. so funny... dink when i grow old.. i may become like her .. forget everything in a few moments.. and start asking the saem thing again.. since i am so forgetful and senile at such a young age now.. when i look at her.. i feel happy for her.. so many pple to care fro her.. so i feel its good to have a big family.. when u r old .. u will have many children and grandchildren to acc u.. its the warm and cosy feeling.. even when a person pass away.. if his or her family is big .. there will be many pple "sending" him or her off.. like my grandpa.. when he passed away.. during the funeral it jus struck my mind that thouh it is sad that he has left us.. i am happy for him that there are so many ppl ard to care for him and attend his wake .. coz he has many siblings.. imagine a person without close ones ard..no one even noes that he or she has left this world.. having a big family is good... but nowadays families are getting smaller.. ok.. y am i toking abt this..


oh yar.. yest morning was scary..nearly cant enter msia yest.. guess wat? coz of my passport photo.. which doesnt look like me.. the last time i came in was during chi new year .. the officer wrote a comment below the passport chop that time.."CHANGE PHOTO" .. but i forgot all about it and din dink they would be so serious.. this time the officer stared at me for quite some time and showed me the comment.. asked me "why din u change photo?".. "when are u going to change?" as if she gonna eat me up.. i replied "i will change it as soon as possible when i get back to spore." But her face is still as black. My dad appeared and said sorry to the officer and said we are only coming for one dae.. said sorry for a few times then she reluctantly chopped.. jus before i went to let the officer chop.. my dad was saying he purposely slot the form in bet other pages of the passport not to let the officer see the comment on the next page..said if they were strict they wld ask me abt it and not let me enter.. and it realli " came true" .. diaoz.. my fault also lah.. they of coz have the right not to let me pass coz it wld mean i neva take their words seriously when they warned me b4... so moral of the story.. cant rebutt govt officers.. or else tehy have every right to detain us or what eva they wanna do with us.. come to dink of it.. i have changed a lot from what i looked liek in teh photo.. that was taken when i was sec one or two i dink.. was wearing specs that time.. short hair.. realli 180 degrees transformation.. haha.. actually many ppl have said that i changed a lot since sec sch.. well.. dink many ppl have changed a lot too..in terms of dressing.. the way they carry themselves.. became more feminine.. hmm.. how have i changed?

feel like posting all e pics that i have taken fr e start of the year till now.. time flies man.. seems like have done many things in jus 3 mths.. actually it is abt 4 mths le.. nearing 4 yrs.. and exams r round corner .. and soon it will be PA.. after which it will the end of yr2.. come to think of it.. it is rather scary.. quite looking forward to going for PA though .. i got MSC(Switzerland) Asia Regional Office.. if u havent heard before.. dink its quite normal.. i myself neva heard before and went to apply for it as first choice.. coz the fact that it is a switzerland company attracted me to it.. always tot switzerland companies are good.. like swiss banks.. i applied for Credit sussie in phase one.. but couldnt get.. and in phase 2, this MSC company caught my attention.. its a shipping company and located at suntec tower 4...guess its not so heard of coz spore's branch is jus an office.. spore may jus be a stopover port.. most of its biz fr europe.. china.. india.. well.. hope will gain something out of my internship there.. haha.. i dink i am jus crazy about switzerland.. coz its my dreamplace mah.. oops.. got to leave for msia le..will be back tml afternoon.. shall post the pics soon..

there are many times pple sae others do not understand them.. and especially those that have been thru tough times .. others who have been leading comfortable lives may not understand what they have been going through.. we get them to cheer up and tell them they will pull thru.. they can do it if they dun give up on themselves.. words like " dun worry, be happy.. look on the bright side of life.." we often use.. but these may not work at all.. because they have given up on themselves.. their world is dark.. they feel no one cares for them... in fact, everyone cares.. jus that they cant pick themselves up on their feet and tell themselves there are many other things in life for them to look out for though they are going thru tough times now.. they jus focus on the negative side of stuff and do not dare to look out of their dark world and seek for the other beautiful side of life.. we noe they have tried.. and we , who neva been thru wat they have gonje thru, would neva understand their pain and fear.. but cant they dink of ppl who are going thru even worse things and have walked out of it bravely? It is always not the end of the world.. always tell yourself prove to those who look down on u.. those who dun appreciate u.. onli when u fight ur own battle within urself can u show them u can.. only then ppl look up to u and appreciate u... realli hope u would be strong.. no one is perfect.. but u are definitely perfect in my eyes if u can and is willing to overcome ur weaknesses and fears and stand up against all odds..no one has given up on u...

dunnoe y tears keep flowing .. jus feel v sad all of a sudden..dunnoe wanna lose e close ones ard me .. there were many times we had tried coming up with the best timing for everyone..asked ard... cldnt find a slot.. but its jus impossible.. everyone's timetable is jus diff.. everyone else has their own commitments too.. rush home for tuition.. projs... its not like i cant spare time.. not dat i jus wanna spend time with dan.. i wanna have time with buddies.. but our commitments sometimes jus clash.. but act i have all e time in e world.. coz i am in hall all e time.. feel so xinku.. wanna meet everyone but time jus doesnt permit us.. wat shld i do? long time neva felt this stress le.. may e 6 of us be together foreva...