been busy the past few weeks coz of PA.. so fast 3 weeks have passed since the 8th of may... and i got my cheque todae!! time realli flies man.. from the first dae when i wore long sleeve shirt and skirt.. bearing all the pain in my legs resulting from wearing the new pair of covered shoes.. i am sure all gals wld have this prob.. in e end cldnbt wear covered shoes until recently when my skin grew back.. well.. have been checking disbursement accounts these few weeks which is completely nothing to do with audiitng and accounting.. nothing to do with wat we have learnt in school.. coz it is shipping line.. and also coz i am working in regional office of the shipping line.. the accounts dept is in charge of checking if the agents the company has all over the region claimed too much money from the office for the costs the shipping line incurred for any voyage.. so it is not all the debit and credit that we have learnt in accounting.. jus about checking the costs.. if too much was charged .. wat the office does is to claim back money from the agents.. so wat i do everydae is to check all the blue files that the agents send to the office.. which are known as the disbursement accounts.. the environment is rather good.. i love the sea view behind me!! coz we are at the 34th floor of suntec tower 4..we can overlook the singapore river leading to the sea... and entire city hall and raffles place area.. fullerton.. merlion.. PSA... the many ships stationery on the beautiful sea.. realised there are a few shades of blue occassionally.. beautiful.. cars so small like toy cars.. and people so tiny.. so during breaks and b4 and after work.. we wld look outside and indulge in the scenery for a few moments..sometimes as we grow up.. we wld tend to forget abt the little little things in life and the beautiful nature coz of our busy lives...city people realli need to find time to indulge in nature and forget all the unhappiness and put aside all the stressful moments.. no wonder people leaving away from the city .. like people japan living in countryside can live such long lives.. leading stress free lives.. eating healthy food.. immersing themselves in hot prongs from time to time.. sometimes learning how to enjoy life is realli impt..

have been dinking abt this these few daes..dink as we move on in life.. there are many things we got to let go.. a lot of things we got to kan4 kai1.. many phases of life we have to go thru.. as u gain something in life.. u lose something.. happiness one moment.. sadness the next moment.. when we r young.. we face probs in sch.. sch work.. frenz.. projs.. simple simple things.. but we have people to guide us along an spoonfeed.. when we r out to work.. relationships with people ard may not be as innocent and simple as before like in sch.. ..social circle may get smaller .. left with ur best buddies.. many more things will come occupy our minds as parents and frenz may not be there 24 hrs to decide everything for u as we r grown ups le.. . and in some point in life.. it is inevitable that our elders will start leaving us.. and in other points in life.. happy occassions like frenz getting married.. everything we jus have no choice but to treat everything as part and parcel of life.. most impt thing is to be optimistic in life bah.. and learn as we go thru every stage of life.. and accept the way life is.. be happy with wateva choices we have made and live life with no regrets.. i hope i can do it too..

women and men.. they r born to be different.. people always sae they r different because opposite attracts.. their differences complement each other to make a perfect couple.. because they r not e same.. their perspective about things would not be identical too.. women are emotional .. men r rational.. women go by their heart... men jus use their head .. women feel but many men judge things from e appearance.. esp about pretty gals? hahaa... i am not generalising here.. but u have to admit dat men and women tend to have all these traits.. y do i suddenly tok abt all these.. there are so many incidents whereby men .. married men fooling outside behind their wives' backs... when everyone else would neva imagine coz the married couple is so loving.. no one wld expect the guy to have an affair outside.. i believe the men love their wives.. some r v nice to their wives.. but they jus wanna have thrills by having an affair outside coz they can raw a line clearly between love and sex.. they noe v clearly they are married and wld go back to their wives one dae after they have had enuff fun .. they noe are jus fooling ard and ultimately their wives r the best..guys r able to do this.. but most women cant.. unless they r prostitutes? dunnoe y.. wheneva i read and across all these in news and cases shown in dramas...i feel sad and angry.. maybe u wld sae all these onli happen in shows... but all these do happen in real life.. recently or maybe some time ago.. there was this case abt this man killing a china woman whom he had an affair with.. when his wife and children were not ard in spore... neighbours said they were v loving.. but who noes he had an affair.. and dink due to some conflict his money.. dink the woman wanted to leave him but he didnt want her to leave and she wanted she wld have to return all e money he spent on her.. but all these probs wld not have happened if he did not have an affair right.. e prob here is y people sae they were loving but he still had an affair? y can guys hide such things and love their wives everydae as if nothing has eva happened? dear told me another case which is abt a retired man who got cheated of his money till his bank account balance onli consists of 3 digits.. he got cheated by this indonesian woman.. but his wife didnt leave him.. instead stayed by him and treat him even better than before.. she was saying if she left him.. his children would leave him too.. he wld not have money.. he wld be alone too.. such a noble woman... she mus have loved him v much that she did so much for him.. the retired man was saying his wife is the best.. coz she stayed with him despite him being unfaithful.. sometimes i dun understand y women have to be noble .. and sacrifice to give them a family.. and the men not dink of the consequences before they do anything? oops.. dink this entry is to stand up for all the women in these cases.. is it coz the wives r not good to their husbands? thats y they look for outside pleasure? there is nothing wives can completely please their husbands such that they do not look for other women? the 9 oclock show .. women of times on channel 8 also shows fann wong being sucha capable and good wife.. but her husband chen2 zhi1 cai2 being a playboy flirts ard outside.. he treats fann wong very well.,. rems all the special occasions.. tells e women he have outside that he has to go back and acc his wife on weekends.. and always makes her forget all her troubles when she comes home after work... but when she is working.. he wld be outside with other gals.. he wld sae he is married.. his priority is still his wife.. no one can replace her.. so he is jus having fun with the gals whom he call " pretty flowers" ..jus dun understand y men can love their wives and yet have an affair outside.. shldnt it be this way.. if a guy loved his wife.. he wld not have fooled ard?dink its hard for women to be like men in these situations..usually when the wives betray their husbands is when they dun love their husbands.. or their husbands do not love them.. unless the women have an affair coz she is aftre the guy's money .. but usually these women r not married.. e difference is dat women cant separate love and sex like men can clearly do.. ok sounds a bit crude.. of coz not all men r like dat... there r good men ard!! jus feel dat there is a big difference bet the females and males.. maybe we r jus born to be wat we r..

my granny is transferred to general ward!! she can even tok to my mum on handphone.. speedy recovery these 2 daes.. relieved man.. but got to go visit my paternal grandma this sat.. for her case its hard to recover.. not operation but illness.. and doc saes there is no way to heal .. or to operate coz she is too old.. like wat shijia said.. my parents mus be both v stressed .. parents getting older and weaker by the dae.. esp my paternal side.. when there is no way to cure and eating lesser by the dae.. situation seems to be similar to wat my late granddads went thru before they left us.. choy choy.. but my parents always tell me this is life.. everyone got to go thru this stage .. whether its more and less pain.. so jus to acc them wheneva possible.. was thinking abt wat my maternal grandma's maid was telling us that dae in the hospital.. act my grandma is v sad every night.. when we leave the hospital after visiting her.. coz she feels lonely.. then she added.. not jus during her stay in hospital.. act wheneva we visit her at her house.. she wld feel sad after we left.. me and my mum looked at each other.. and can feel the sadness in each other's eyes.. dink old pple realli feel lonely.. and insecure.. esp those without children staying with them.. and when their spouses have left.. and ironically this is the case.. when grandpa is ard.. grandma will keep nagging and scolding him for being troublesome and useless but when they r not ard anymore.. we can see that they miss their other half.. dink human beings r like dat.. will always miss something onli they r not ard.. absence makes the heart grow fonder.. loneliness is inevitable for old pple.. children have their own families .. they have their own commitments..lesser time to spend with them.. illnesses they have to cope with.. sometimes i look at myself.. i am afraid of loneliness.. wat wld happen when i grow old.. like my grandma's age.. ok dink i dink too much.. sometimes when i have nothing to do my mind jus wanders.. wat abt u? i always believe in having a big family.. so dat its more re4 nao4.. though big family also has its own probs.. but during happy times.. more pple can immerse into the happiness and share the joy.. well.. i jus wish for good health for everyone's grandparents.. feeling sleepy.. be back soon~~

happy that my grandma is recovering.. she can eat rather well todae.. though its onli a little food she can take in each time.. but its a good sign.. and can talk quite a lot todae as compared to the previous daes.. maybe cozshe can wear denches todae.. dats y her articulation of words much better.. thanks to all who showed concern..told me everything wld be fine.. well dink i gonna be addicted to vcds le.. got stairway to heaven which i borrowed from yu fang long time ago .. dink it was long before sch started.. and xing2 shi4 zhen1 ji1 from dan.. which i liked to watch so much when it was shown on tv.. coz the combi of gu3 tian1 le4 and xuan xuan is jus so great.. but it is so sad.. jus picked the second last episode to watch.. and it showed gu3 tian1 le4 receiving his ex's artificial leg.. coz she was injured when she was abducted by this guy whose bro was killed by gu tian le i dink.. he wanted to take revenge and abducted his ex.. act she is not realli his ex.. they were abt to marry when she was abducted.. they were supposed to meet at ROM on that fateful dae.. she sacrificed a lot with the hope that the abductor wld not hurt gu tian le... and the letter that he received told gu tian le told him how much his gf sacrificed and made him feel guilty by saying he was enjoying his time with his current gf who is xuan xuan.. it made his so devastated after reading.. so sad.. he still loved her so much and felt that he cld not protect her when she sacrificed so much.. and xuan xuan felt terrible too.. ok.. dink i am always so engrossed in shows that sometimes my emotions r somewat influenced by the shows..
the korean show too.. realised all korean shows have similar plots.. bro and sis who are not related .. and bro likes sis.. and there wld be this bad woman who tries to break up 2 lovebirds... or long lost sisters who love the same man.. alamak.. y do korean dramas be so drama tic and sad.. but i still like to watch them.. haha.. jus get me hooked when i start watching.. well there r light hearted ones .. those with jung nara.. kai1 lang3 shao4 nu3.. and hong2 dou4 nu3 zhi1 lian4..quite like jung nara.. she always takes on the role of a bubbly and lovable gal.. if i were a guy i wld like this type of gal.. haha.. her shows always make me happy.. well.. this last week before attachment start .. i shall try to finish watching the 2 shows.. shall go sleep le.. be back again~~ oh yar.. feel happy to see my family happy when i finally cooked lunch for them todae.. after having promised them for a long time.. coz they said i cook in hall but neva cook for them.. and it was spaghetti todae.. shall cook more this hols.. :)